Lest you think I'm dangling over a precipice somewhere... I've been off having a good, theraeutic time. Spent two days at my brother's cabin, even got snowed in there and enjoyed a Canadian snow storm in the cozy comfort of the wood stove. Got to share thoughts and feelings with my siblings and although it was anxiety-provoking to hear of others' pain, it was a good release in the end. The girls and I went sledding down the lane and hiked across the frozen lake to explore an old abandoned cabin. They hardly fought. What a gift.
Now we're packing up again to head off to the country paradise that houses the old shed that is pictured on my banner. They have four kids to match our four, and Rosa is a dear friend from the city we moved from three and a half years ago. It will be wonderful.
Thank you all for your kindnesses, and good wishes for the new year. I rung ours in at the assisted living home, and only got called a f**ing B**tch a nominal amount of times.
2007 will be a time of healing, and further revelation. No great strengths come of hiding or running, and my choice is to continue to feel the feelings and give them the chance to become resolved. I have already made myself vulnerable to people who can offer me tools and directions for healing. I find that letting the beasts out is scarey, but usually they land up reasonably "tame-able". I don't expect it to be simple to make room in my schedule for this help, but I recognize it as necessary. And I'm grateful for it.
Many of you are also on my mind, as I know of challenges ahead with your families or health. And I sincerely stretch out my hand and heart in a desire to walk that path with you. What are we is we cannot hold one another up?
God bless in 2007.